breaking free

at last, i was able to burst it out yesterday, was able to cry it out though im not over it yet im still in the process of absorbing the situation and im finding it sssooo hard. i was able to talk to him also he asked why i am so cold to him, can't face him honestly im not angry at him i dnt have the heart to get mad at him,crazy yes im guilty of it, its just that im afraid that what happened might change everything, im afraid to loose him. i dont know how to treat him i feel so awkward. i do miss him so much i hope everything would be normal again..