im back!!!!

Its been quite a while, been very busy this past few days. Lots of things has happened its been a roller coaster ride of emotions. We've talked already, finally, got the guts to face him. Actually, its just a misunderstanding that we haven't talk or settle right away because during those times we hardly see each other. You know what, I thought we would never talk again ever and during those days I realized that how much I love him. Inspite his coldness, I never felt anger, yes hurt but I never got mad at him kse hindi nya ko pinapansin. I am trying to understand the situation and also knowing him na hindi rin sya makakatiis! ( hahaha). but Im glad that everything is back again. In all fairness to him, he's been doing effort just to make me feel comfortable or at ease with the situation, he makes me feel that he loves me. Despite the situation, he still making some time with me which I appreciate a lot, super. I am taking the chances whenever we are together because I know that this won't last forever, I take each time as if it is the last.

breaking free

at last, i was able to burst it out yesterday, was able to cry it out though im not over it yet im still in the process of absorbing the situation and im finding it sssooo hard. i was able to talk to him also he asked why i am so cold to him, can't face him honestly im not angry at him i dnt have the heart to get mad at him,crazy yes im guilty of it, its just that im afraid that what happened might change everything, im afraid to loose him. i dont know how to treat him i feel so awkward. i do miss him so much i hope everything would be normal again..

back to work

im back to work again tomorrow. i'll be seeing the same old faces again and im back with the same old routine. i know ill be back with a lot of job waiting for me.still im thankful to God i have a stable job that allows me to sustain all my "luho".its not that im lazy to go back to work its just that i think im not yet ready to face him.i can still feel the hurt im afraid that the it may become worse if i'll be seeing him.im in my weakest at this point in time i dont know how to stop the hurtin.i need a LOT of SPACE and TIME.if i could only disappear or wake up one day with amnesia just to get rid with all of these.well,good luck to me tomorrow.